We all have feelings. Sometimes they’re good, but other times they’re bad. Feelings come and go everyday. Sometimes they’re stronger than others, and then they’re are the smaller ones. All feelings, however, are in one form or another taken to the heart and soul of that very person. When feelings are bad, mental and emotional pain are at an all time high. When feelings are good, your mind becomes relaxed and calm. Feelings are ultimately the result of the people around you in your everyday lives. Peers, co-workers, strangers, friends, family, and everyone else in your life make these feelings. From love to hatred, feelings are alive. Some people, like me, try to hide they’re feelings. But after they’re built up inside of you for so long, you have to let them out. They’re is always that one person, the only one you trust, that you can let them out too. They listen and they don’t judge. They’re always on your side no matter what, and it’s the same for them. Today was a day of many feelings for me. When one of your “best friends” has an up and down relationship with a guy, you try to help. Basically he was ready to break things off with her, but I had a really long talk with him. And now he is planning on making it official. She got pissed at me because I didn’t tell her what he was going to do. He was even on my side. She kept being a bitch to me and being all snotty. Then her little minion joined her. Basically this little girl worships the ground she walks on and is even a bigger bitch. They always put me down and say they hate me with the apparent “I Loooooooveee youuuuuu !” at the end. But this time was different. They gave me the silent treatment, screamed and embarrassed me for even looking in the general direction, and always saying I hate you and meaning it. After someone says they hate you for so long you start to believe it. You see, there is this other boy who always says he ‘hates’ me, but he’ll always go “you know I’m kidding right? I don’t hate you.” And I’m fine with that, but these two girls never did that. Then today, my absolute best friend stood up for me and called them out. The little follower of the original girl who was mad at me told her to stand down and not get involved in other peoples business when in reality the girl wasn’t apart of the issue either. Shit went down, and awkwardness took place. The follower girl type thing truly apologized and I became fine with her. Then later the girl I had a problem with’s boyfriend thingy started talking to me about things we had been previously discussing. He also was talking to me, my best friend, and another one of my close friends about it. The other girl then sucked up to the original girl and made up because she just likes her better I guess. I stood my ground and wouldn’t give in. I did nothing wrong. I saved her relationship and this is what I get. Turns out she was mad at me for talking to him and getting involved when he came to me. He just wanted advice, and that’s what I’m best at. I said sorry, but I wasn’t really. This whole situation got me really upset. I was crying for being hated. Being tormented by your own friends is worse then being tormented by enemies. I hated every minute of that day, except that night. I went out with my real friends and we had a great time. Worst day of my life. Best night ever.
